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*nervous laugh* Wha...I don't know whether I should be feeling relieved or upset. I really have no idea.

In Calculus at the moment, I'm getting 67%. ;-; ><; I never gotten this low before...wha. Not even in Accounting or Grade 9 Math. *sigh* I'm getting a little bit better than what I initially thought, which was a 65%. I don't know...I know mid-terms aren't that reflective, but I'm feeling a little bit more determined to work harder and do better than ever. >=) And now I'm not as afriad as looking dumb in front of people (asking for help wise), mainly because I have to now. I can't just let my mark slide like that, Kin thank goodness will help and he's the great person to ask for, I'm so thankful. =)

Better news is that I got 82% for English so far. =D Which is a lot better than what I can even imagine for Grade 12 Univserity English. I know I can probably keep up an 80%, but then it depends on how well I end up doing for my essays. =S Not that nervous, but happier. =)

Visual Art is alright I guess. I'm not quite sure what my mark is at the moment since she didn't give us back my oil pastel Expressionist art yet (which I like to call my 'Frog Portriat' xD), I'm really hoping to do well in that becuase I know I can pull off an 90% if I do. =S Getting nervous now. Espically since I'm probably going to get around the same becuase of my sketchbook assignment. ><*

Otherwise...getting nervous...this is so not good. =S My marks are all over the place, argh.

I just woke up awhile ago when I fell asleep on my bed while I reading stupid White Men. It's happening a lot lately, but mostly it was like for 10 minutes at most, but after an hour long nap, that feel so good. =)

Anyways, I finished my Calculus test, it wasn't as bad as I first aniticapted, I feel a little bit better, btu I hope I do well. -_- =S

ANd on other news, I would love my wedding to be like this one. It was so nice and magical. =) I espically adore the part where they were getting ready, abotu an hour left before the wedding. And Oprah asked the bride, "So how do you think you soon-to-be husband is holding up?" She replied, "He's fine". Then you see him pouring his eyes out becuase he's so happy and so blessed. Aw....!!! =) I was just so amused, but I envy them! Vera Wang haute coutre wedding dress, Shania Twian singing at their wedding and a chocolate caramel cake. =) Such a fantasy. =)

One more day til the weekend. Can't wait! At least I can relax today and watch The Apprentice and Joey.

Okay, I may not have watched SNL for a long period of time and sadly when I really started to love Jimmy Fallon he left. But, at least I continued to watch it and this has to be my favourite yet! The skits were a little blah...but I did liked some of them, they were adorable, though I think the host could have been a lot better.

U2 though...they rocked!! =) I loved their performance, it was just awesome! It was so amusing when he went "Live, live, live" at the begining of their first song! >xD Ashlee Simpson will never live down her SNL performance. The other musical guests did not captured my attention as much as they did and too bad NBC didn't air teh rest of it. ;-; Bono said, "Another one? Alright." and then it was cut! =( But then I think it was terribly adorable!! The cast looked liked they really enjoyed it and I would have loved to be there in teh audience that day. =D I hope the other musical guest would learn something from that on SNL when they go on. =)

Back to my stubborn essay...Honour is defined as to show high respect to one...

I don't know what's wrong, but I'm missing my friends at the moment. Not the ones at school, but the other ones that I don't get a chance to see much like Nick...and Natalie, haven't seen her in a couple of months since she changed her classes to 4, but still. Maybe I should purposly stay back for one day and see if she comes since it's half and hour from my class to her. Haha...I feel so stalker-ish all of a sudden! >xD And then there's Nick which I talked to on my birthday and man, I miss talking to him, espically about nothing! =P Haha...and he's great to go shopping with, I hope I can see him soon. Then there's Queena, I haven't exactly talked to her, but I miss having someone to walk with. I don't feel as lonely or to myself, but still. But then when I think about the people at school, I really don't get a chance to really talk to them as much as I would really like. =/ I go home early and I got a good feeling that I would have to stay during lunch to finish up my art. ><* I have three classes with people who are just there and I get along with them fine, but still, missing people. ;-; I guess I'm not used to being so alone and not having so much to do. I don't know...just missing people at the moment. =( It's also probably becuase there's no one online at MSN! =O! Usually people end up leaving their MSN on, but today's there no one. =/

I also blame my missing mood becuase I'm tired from reading Can You Keep A Secret? I stayed up to read it since it got interesting. ^^; I just saying one more chapter, wait til the break and it doesn't exactly come any time soon until I just finish reading the book. Really funny book and I adore it to bits! Great for a light read, nothing terribly hard, which is good. =P

Art at the moment is a pain in the butt! ><* I think I shouldn't have choosen the city in the footprint idea since there would be mad details I have to do and tis not very fun. =/ And I'm falling terribly behind too, I know I should start painting, but then I don't feel confident on drawing on my board without using the graphite paper. I know I'm terribly behind and I have to stay after class to finish it up...I'm going to starve. ;-; This is a horrible deja vu from my last art project. Noo...

I've been finding myself without much of a motivation to do my work unless it's art, and even though I complain about it, I'm really not that annoyed by it. ~-^ Calculus is the one I'm particulary worried about, I used to enjoy Math, in general, but now it's just a chore to do. I lost all my confident in doing it at the moment. Maybe it's due to the horrible mark I got at mid-terms and the horrible gut feeling that I have about my test that I'm getting back soon. ;-; I need some help...